What if I believed you, would it change my heart?

I was in the car a few weeks ago. It was dark and the road was illuminated only by the headlights of the surrounding vehicles. The M25 was fairly empty and I was driving home. I always get anxious when I'm going home to see Adam. I get butterflies in my stomach and I tap the steering wheel. The journey's long but it goes fast because I have an aim, a direction. I had the 'I'm coming home' line from Hearts burst into fire by Bullet For My Valentine running through my head, so I reached into the glove compartment to find the CD & ended up finding Momento Mori by Flyleaf so I stuck it in the player and worked through the tracks. Eventually I got to Circle and it has a line in it which goes:

'What if I believed you, would it change my heart?'

And it got me thinking, how have  I changed since becoming a Christian all those years ago and how does this make me different? People always say to me 'Vicky, you're so nice, you're one of the nicest people I've ever met' but the truth is I'm really not. I can be absolutely horrendous in my thoughts and in the way I act. Some of my prepubescent arguments with my sister hold testament to this! I'm nice not through me but though God working though me. I'm (trying to) show Jesus through my actions and perceptions to other people. I'm impatient, but through God's mercy, he gives me patience. I am judgemental but the father takes this from me.

I think one of the main reasons I am the person I am today is that because of my relationship with God, I have hope, hope in the future, hope in something more than this. The bible also teaches that only those who come to the lord can be truly satisfied. Its so easy to be distracted by things, things that God has given us to enjoy, even to the point of worshipping it over God. These things can bring happiness, but it's superficial and momentary. God holds the key.

So back to point: Have I changed since I became a Christian?

Absolutely.

I'm able to be happy, instead of coveting what someone else has, longing for approval from people who will never give you it and I have no dissatisfaction with life as a whole.
I have hope in something. I'm aiming towards a goal, a finishing line which means that my life has so much more meaning than aimlessly stumbling through.
I'm not a nice person alone, but with Jesus working through me, I'm able to show him to others which in turn makes me seem so much nicer.

Just a few points for thought ;)

XOX